Awe is the feeling of reverential respect coupled with fear or wonder, there couldn’t be a more perfect word to capture my feelings as I stare in awe at Meea. Wonder, amazement and fear are all there. After the struggle I went through to have a child now that she is here the fear of parenting wrong is very real. Both my husband and I are adopted, my family found me in an orphanage in South Korea, a female infant with a cleft lip, I was not one of “awe” for my birth parents. I am one of 6 kids, smack in the middle. 4 boys and 2 girls, 4 adopted, 2 biological. My parents wanted a big family, so when I was married there was no question for me, of course I wanted kids. But life had other plans. My husband and I couldn’t conceive. After many years trying, lots of tests and procedures it seemed adoption was the future route for our family. Initially we wanted to adopt an embryo so I could experience pregnancy. 8 years later, we have our miracle.
Meea, she came to us from an egg donor not an embryo. Having a mixed race baby was of utmost importance to my husband and I. There were no available mixed raced embryos. However, there was a young Korean American student, donating eggs to pay for her education. 5 of the eggs took, I only used 2. There are 3 remaining embryo’s we hope to make available for an open adoption. This is my way to have a “large” family for Meea
Awesome is loud but awe is quiet. Listen to your heart and you will stay on course no matter the twists of fate.